Spiritual high

 Last Sunday, i had the opportunity to attend  the young single adults/the young married adults fireside. It was such a neat experience! It wasn't just a fireside like they all usually are.. with the elderly high priests talk about how the young men need to start asking the young ladies to marry them and on and on about that subject... ( can you tell i don't enjoy YSA firesides very much?? ) but we were able to hear from Elder Holland. Now Elder Holland holds a special place in my heart. Presh, i know. But really, he does. His mother was in my home ward growing up and she was seriously the sweetest old woman i have ever known. She was like my adopted great grandma! She is also one of the most powerful and spiritual ladies I've known. That's where Elder Holland gets it i think. But anyways... He spoke at this fireside and i got to attend it live. He is even greater in person! He had a very strong message for the youth and it hit me pretty hard. First he reminded us to never, NEVER check our religion at the door. What he meant by that was that we always, at all times, in all things, and in all places, we must be living the way we've been taught to, and in ways that we know Heavenly Father would be proud of. Just because we're in certain situations that we feel it might be okay to not act our very best, is no excuse to not act our very best. Second, he taught to always remember the worth of a soul. And thirdly he reminded us to ALWAYS let the light of Christ shine through us. Great reminders to us all and definitely a help to take a step back, reflect on our actions, and change the things that aren't quite right in our lives. He's such a powerful speaker and it was such a great time.

After the fireside, I picked up the babe, and went to game night. It was so fun to catch up with friends i hadn't seen in a while, and get in some social interaction besides cooing at Taisley. I loved people's reactions to her being there. Some people i knew there didn't know i had a baby, they were very surprised, and it was sort of, kind of, sometimes pretty awkward, but i just smiled and laughed and said to myself  "Tess, you better get used to this. There is plenty more criticism where this is coming from." But, for the most part it was just a good time, meeting new people and having a social life for a night.


Totally a good time, but when i got home i was so exited to cuddle up with my babe and be in for the night. It made me appreciate baby Tay in my life even more and i seriously had the most fun finally just being alone with her and enjoying her company.------> Have i mentioned i'm completely in love with her?? Taisley also has discovered this new thing called smiling. It melts my heart every time! I am so scared for when she gets older because i'm afraid i will do anything for that sweet smile!

She loves to be talked to. It gets instant smiles!

As for today, it was Taisley's blessing day. Such an amazing day. My brother in law Tyler blessed her. He was nervous, his first time blessing a baby, but he did a great job. She received a beautiful blessing to match her beautiful soul. It just further indicated that I know i'm supposed to have her, right now, under these circumstances, and that everything is going to be just fine. She has brought my whole entire family closer together. We needed a light and she came shining. Babies just have an amazing effect on people. It's wonderful that something so small can have such a huge impact on so many people's lives! She is a beautiful blessing and she honestly couldn't be more perfect! I'm probably a completely overly obsessed mother, but for those of you who have children, you get it! Those who don't, you can't even imagine these feelings until you have your own. It changes your whole world! Seriously your perspectives on EVERYTHING change. Even your perspective of your living room couch. I'm not even kidding it's crazy how you become a whole different person. But it's absolutely amazing how much more complete and happy you can feel when your whole world has been turned upside down

Our Family Picture ;)

Okay seriously, i need to stop writing these in the middle of the night because, i'm pretty sure i misspell things, use horrid grammar, and don't have very good flow from one subject to the next. Bare with me. I'm new at this and i'll hopefully (fingers crossed) get better.

                                                       xo
                                                              Tessie    

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So, i guess this is where people write about  life's crazy and fun adventures. Seeing as i feel that my adventures are just about to get a lot more crazy and a ton more fun then ever before i decided to start this blog! Having a new little one I know things will just escalate from here! I am so excited about motherhood, i know it's only been a month, but so far so good!! I have enjoyed EVERY second of it (Yes, even in the middle of the night)! I was so blessed with such a good baby though! For now, she is only waking up once during the night, and then sleeping in at least until seven..she is an angel! People tell me to get prepared for the long nights and the screaming and the times where i won't enjoy being a mom, but i just nod my head and smile at those people. I will cross that bridge, and possibly cry, when i get to it. For now, i am just enjoying the sweet, cuddly, little doll i have! For a long time i didn't know if she was going to be mine. Seeing as i am only 19, and also single, i had to explore all my options. But turning to (unfortunately only recently did he become) my best friend, my Heavenly Father, i was given a confirmation that my little peanut was supposed to be mine. A close family friend was the child of a similar situation to mine. Her father, who now had been a stake president and bishop, told her "Don't EVER let anyone tell you you were a mistake, yes, your mother and I did what we had to biologically to get you here, but if Heavenly Father didn't want you to be here, you wouldn't have come." I feel that that is so true. People can do things, and if a baby isn't supposed to come out of the situation, she won't. I know that there is a reason for all things. There are certain paths we can choose to go down, things happen, and that is our path. They aren't mistakes, just simply experiences. One of the most popular conference talk came out just after i learned i was pregnant. President Uchtdorf's famous quote " Don't judge me because i sin differently than you." couldn't have come at a more perfect time. My sin, was obviously VERY noticeable. But just because it was more noticeable didn't make that saying any less true. I sin, you sin, we all sin and that's just a part of this life!! Some are just a little more noticeable and a lot more talked about. It took me a long time to accept the fact that i wasn't a completely horrid person for what i had done. I had just sinned differently than a lot of people, and that's okay. I was headed down a bad path, and i honestly believe having Taisley saved me from myself. I couldn't be happier and I am so excited to start this journey with such a sweet little thing! Wow, this has sounded a little preachy! Ha not my intentions!! i just have a lot of thoughts on this stuff. It's all i've had to think about recently! 

                 

Well, instead of making this blog i should have probably gotten sleep while this little babe on my lap is sleeping, but hey! We can sleep when we're dead...right? Right! And i feel very productive for getting this little thing done. But since i haven't slept since yesterday night, i guess i should go to bed huh? Well... 

Goodnight! xo